01 November 2009

Trying Something New

I know in the past, I've been something of a downer, what with my discouraged conversation of changing majors and transferring back to Murray, but I think I'm passed that. Maybe it's the fact that I'm taking a class that I absolutely love. Maybe it's because I've got excellent friends. Maybe it's my distance from Haggin Hall. Whatever the case, I'm genuinely happy with my present situation.

That's not just some advantageous my-life-is-sunshine-and-butterflies statement either. I mean, I'm still sucking pretty hard at physics and I still face my fair share of conflict now and then, but for whatever reason, I seem to have finally adjusted to life here at UK. I guess that's as good an explanation as any as to the recent dearth of posts on this site.

I think much of my problem with college has been that I spent my first year concerned with proving everyone wrong and maintaining old relationships as though nothing had changed. This, as you may have guessed, was, is, and forever shall be a mistake. This isn't to say that I don't attribute value to everyone I've been friends with over the years, but rather that I'm willing to let some of those interactions be what they were rather than turning them into funerals by keeping their corpses around. I've still got people I talk to frequently but seldom see, and that kind of relationship is a blessing. There are others, though, that I've recognized a need to let go of. I still care about these people, but at the same time, preserving meaningless connection is just going to make us hate each other, and I'd like our recollections to be fond. I'd sooner reminisce with someone in Wal-Mart than avoid them.

And I guess that's all I have to say. I'm where and when I need to be. This site has always been a sort of emotional shunt, and at present the excess is happiness.

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